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hello my salmonlings. it's been a while!

the madness and agony i was feeling a month ago has most definitely subsided. it turns out living on my own and becoming a real person is an incredibly painful and harrowing process, but once i went through it for a month or so things weren't so bad! like, i can buy all the grapes i want now! and i can be myself without someone telling me i'm wrong or ugly or strange or going to hell! life is great when there isn't a bitch in you ear telling you that you suck.

this experience, while difficult, and still ongoing, has given me a newfound sense of life. it's a freeing feeling of finally grasping hold of life and realizing that you can do what you want. i feel alive! and i'm happy that i'm alive!! most of the time at least. we all have our moments. like having to get a job...tragic. but what a gift it is to be able to complain.

last night i performed at demarest hall!! shoutout to them, their events are very fun and a great way for people to get involved in local drag. at the show another perfomer came up to me and told me that i inspired them to do their set!! Girl Failya, wherever you are, you have made my week. my month, in fact! the fact that people are recognizing me and are excited to see me perform makes me so happy!! us salmon are very simple creatures, we swim and eat and mate and die. not much interaction amongst ourselves. but people telling me that they loved my set, that they're excited to see me perform in the future, that i'm talented and unique and interesting?? it fills my little salmon heart with joy.

i am not going to claim to be famous already, but i am recognized. and that feels very nice. making an impact, being known, and having people find you interesting, not just in admiration, but in inspiration, is what i imagine real famous people enjoy. it's not just about the followers and money (ALTHOUGH MONEY IS GREATLY APPRECIATED.), but it's about the human connections you make, connections with your quail friend, your human friends, or with audience members and enjoyers of drag.

life gets tough and difficult, and i continue to fight these fights. but i do it now with a compelling urge to win. this human life i have been given is cruel at times, but it is fun and exciting and liberating as well. umm. give trans people guns.

warm regards, lady salmon.

this is the image they will use in "Sockeye Salmon: The Documentary" which will recount my humble beginnings, rise to fame, and mysterious death...